halfway through e day, gt e stupid double vision. idiiot lehs. see things must put so near my eyes. then like some dumb pple seeing things la. then when playing piano tht time gt tht stupid headache. rly rly dmn pain. its those kinda acute pain thn awhile pain awhile not de. aiiyas. also cnt rly explain. bt it rly chao tong. like e whole head split like that.

the doc came today, thn dd sth like a check thn gv me my latest update on my conditn. all i can say bout it is ... its dmn dishearteningg. dontwan to talk abt it anymore.

alrdy gt more than enough troubles le. gt no time to thnk abt myslf la. just payng attntn to what matters e most to me now? as much troubles i hv, is as though e amt of water in e sea. no matter hw good i can swim, i can nvr swim to e shore. soon enough, i will fail myslf and gt drown in it. once i drown, no one will be able to save me out ba. bcos till tht time, i hv alrdy gvn up hope on myslf.

tryng to imagine hw would my life be.. bt i can nvr expect myslf to go through all those toil. i shouldnt have even loved you in e frst place ba. sorrys to say tht.