maybe i just do not have that courage and im scared of what will happen aft i tell. afraid of confessing how important you are to me. fear that i will get ignorance. scared that e end result will be a total reverse. i can keep thinking of u e whole time, but whnevr i see u, words just disappear. so i guess i will nvr be able to tell u how impt u are to me. just leave it unknown ba. happy for jac tht e person she was referring to is aware. mine will nvr care and will nvr know. haiis.

shld i withdraw? shld i not? hahhs. still hesitatng. i wonder if a person that don hv her heart and soul die in e due course, hw will it turn out to be? curious to find out. hahhs.

hw do i expct myslf to peacefully wave goodbye when wishes are ungranted, words arent said?