< /33 just wish to be alone ..


do u know each time you appear in front of me,
my mind nvr fails to be blank ..
my heart also goes through that kinda tormoil ..
yet, i nvr fail to ..
i thought of e promise i made with myslf ..
am i to break it or not ?..
my heart no longer in one piece ..
in order not to feel e pain,
i musnt be a human ..
and maybe because im one,
i feel e pain ..
do you exactly think that im immune to e pain ?..
so each time,
e pain can get worse ?..
somehow i missed you,
yet my heart don feel e triumph ..


with you,
i was brought to e peak of my life ..
with you,
i was brought to e edge of e cliff ..
maybe u nvr knew all this ..
but this is how i feel ..
at peak of my life,
i wished fer e happiness to be true&eternal ..
at e edge of e cliff,
all i wished fer is ur smile then my death ..


thanks fer even bringing me to e peak of my life ..
now,
being brought to e edge of e cliff ..
im gone ..
hurted, rather go ..


i don wan such a life living in e midst of anguish ..
unfolding nightmares instead of dreams ..
hopes, but crushed ..
promised, but broken ..
wishes, but ungranted ..
smiles, but fake ..
laughter, but tears ..
strong front, but weak ..




celine <33 *
but,
* <33 her