i have regretted.
really regretted.
regretted what i have done in e past.
regretted telling you how i feel.
regretted every single thing i have done.
fer whatever that have happened in e past,
im sorry. i should have trusted you.
fer ytdd, i want to thank you fer cheering me up.
hais. i thought by telling you, things will be better.
am i just deceiving myslf?
knowing that i will stand no whr in ur heart&life.
i regretted telling you, i should hv kept it to myslf.
fer all the wrong doings. i just wanna say SORRY.


love can nvr be measured by time ba.
time was nvr a factor in any form of a relationshp.
i was just using time to cover up.
but deep in me,
its e feeling that is needed.
i can love you fer a yr,
but at e end.
without e feelings,
is thr a point?


left with just a heart? no more.
a soul? no more.
an outer shell that has no content in it.
each time i gv myslf a hope&reason to ctn walking e lonely street,
my hope always bound to be crushed,
my reason nvr being valid.
i know. i really know.


fer this time, i really understood.
i used not to. but now, i do.


back in my own class.
a complicated class.
maybe it looks simple.
with e nessecary items in it,
table, chairs, whiteboard and stuff.
with blue painted walls.
e comfort of being in e class is thr,
but thr is awkwardness.
comprehending why,
i cant understand e complex theory.
e crux of e matter,
i donknw how to face it.
trying to shuff it aside,
but i cant.
i know i hv to face it someday,
hating that someday.
maybe before that someday comes,
im gone.
who knows?


living on ths world is just a burden to others. burden to e 2 pple in my life. me to you, is just a mei. it can nvr cross e line of a mei. hais. me to you, is just like nobody. a nobody that you don hv to care fer. a nobody that nvr mean anythng to you, because im just a NOBODY.


received a call from mom, saying tht my maid attempted to commit suicide. asked me to go home. dad came to pick me up. when i reached home, no one was at home. left me and my sis. i also donknw why my maid like that, but my guess is her family problems. she just wants to get away. maybe to get away from all ths problems, she thinks that there is only this way left. i agree ba. is thr any other way to get away from problems?


maybe i should follow her. fer i really really wish to run away from all e problems im facing. e pressure that im facing. i know to some out thr, what im facing is just peanuts to you. but now, im faced with all ths with hopes smashed along e way. hurted emotions. slashed heart. a weak mind that can no longer judge things. eyes covered with unfairness. just let me be. human will die at e end of their journey. whats ahead of me is just darkness. i don wan to carry on walking like a blind anymore.


smiles are just used as a shield