last night, i was really tired. i keep trying to keep my mind awake, so tht i can reply you. was i dumb? i was super tired. hvn got enough rest, but whn i close my eyes, i see you. how can i slp like tht? frgt it.


had bbq.
e food was great. it was fun, but i couldnt really enjoy myslf, because i was in e midst of thnkng of one&missing one. you guys eyes really got prblm ahs!? we nvr even talk, just sit together and he taught me e guitar like that also say we sweet. wasehs. verysweet indeed. totally speechless. e marshmellows? arghh. i freaking hate you guys la.


fer once, i enjoyed jamming. loll. can you imagine tht? wow! one tht complained the most, finally enjoyed it lehs. know why ma? hahhs. because you guys played sad songs, so i can tou ru. then i also nvr make any mistakes. so good lors me. and also because today i play guitar ma, not drums. so more fun abit. anyway, e main point is- i manage to tou ru. because my mood fit the songs. hahh. tht is e best part today ba.


when everyone was jamming, i cried. tears shed fer tht someone. all the songs and lyrics just brings back memories. setbacks aft setbacks just played in my mind. i couldnt help it. missing you like hell. when it is only e frst day. what to do? things that arent meant to be mine, arent suppose to be mine. hais. am i gna be so confused fer e rest of my secondary life?