guess my greatest regret fer e time being is tht, i ddnt plan fer e chalet right after exams. everything is like so last min.

&my ONE&ONLY wish fer nw is to pause e time, let me settle down my thoughts.


dontknw wad to do anymore. yr words just seemed to hv made such a great impact on me, it had just simply pierced through me. try cracking yr brains fer e plan, &hw to gv yr classmates a surprise. it may jut be e last time you'l hv yr chance to.
YES, I ADMIT IT.
IM NOT GOOD AT ANYTHING.
NVR GOOD AT ANYTHING.
EVEN IF I STUDY,
MY RESULTS ARE STIL LIKETHAT.
EVEN IF I SPEND HALF A DAY THINKING OF IDEAS,
E PLAN&SCHEDULE IS STIL STAGNENT.
I KNOW!
NEED NOT YOU TO REMIND.
YES, IM NVR GOOD AT ANYTHING.
WIL THS DO!?
maybe from e start i shouldnt even hv asked fer permission to tk on ths challenge.
hv you ever spared a thought fer wads gng through my mind? each night as i look at my calendar counting down how many days are there left fer me to prepare fer e chalet. i dare not shut my eyes. no matter how tired i am, i dare not go to slp. because im afraid tht e nxt morning i wont wake up early, & i'l end up wasting a few hrs slpng. tht kinda stress, YOU UNDERSTAND MA!? when i start looking at e clock, seeing e hands of e clock moving as each second pass, while i cant thnk of a single plan. i start panicking. i dare not waste time. i keep askng myslf to thnk of sth, but its always to no avail. when more&more pple start asking me how is yr planning coming along, wad are we gna do, wad must we bring. i really dontknw wad to say. to those pple who hv asked me, who hv yet to ask me, IM SORRY. I CANT GV YOU GUYS A PROPER ANS. im really sorry.

as you stare at me,
gvng me those eyes tht made me feel that everything i do is useless.
my heart&mind cry out fer hlp.
but do you see? do you hear?
one of ths day,
whn tears really fall from my eyes.
you'l see.

yr ONE sentence,
thrash me to e ground.
swept my confidence.
shook my ground.
"why work so hard? ppl pay e same amt as you, yet you hv to do so much work. why they choose someone like you to organise fer them? ths ppl must hv looked too highly upon you. if you cant tk it, you better tell them now, so that they can quickly think of something. you cant even lead yr own life, you wanna lead so many ppl's life.?"

ppl, i dontknw whthr is it right to ctn from whr i hv stopped.
im tired.