my mum saw me studying so hard fer exams, thnk she felt glad to hv a sensible daughter like me. so she returned me my macbk. hehh. she expects me to hv e discipline to control myslf. &guess wad! i really did control myslf. e macbk was returned ytd, &i used it today. counted as stayed away from temptation. which mean i got discipline. okays, crap. -.-

hv been studying ths few days. which i seriously thnk tht i was slacking most of e time i was alone at hm. only at e very last min thn i startd. so i thnk my dream of being in e top 4o of e sch kinda drift very far away. looking at e amt of effort tht everyone else is putting into studying. hahh. me? loll. right at e very bottom.

listening to wad micheal shared on e bbq. yeah, i should hv listened to him mnths before streaming. whn he told me to study hard. hais. &all ths miseries of trying to memorise last min wont come in lor. really regretted. actually i thought i hv regretted aftr seeing a o in my report bk&e drop in results. bt it seem kinda a short span of regret. &fer tht few weeks tht i hv to prepare fer streaming. i ddnt really go thnk of all e consequences. it was in e midst of studying tht i really started feeling e real regret.

if ths round i dont gt my aim. its kinda expected? slacking fer e whole yr, &expecting a miracle to happen? hahh. like wad paul&micheal say, things dont come easy in life. if i can just get wad i want liketht, by doing al e last min work. thn i guess i wil have to thank the Lord fer showing me His mercy. was jus thnkng, how far would i hv went without a King in my life? without this merciful Saviour that so loved me? im so glad to hv known Him. &tht i wil nvr regret.

was in mac ytd. &we suddenly talked abt e bday wish ovr a guy. silly or not, i hv no comments lar. because i hv aso wasted my bday wish on a guy? bt i hv came to knw sth, if e thng tht im hoping fer was to come true, it had alrdy long ago come true. with wishing or without wishing, if it is meant to happen thn it would. you xie shi shi mian qiang bu liao de? shun qi zi ran ba.

cried because of sb²p. hais. i jus dontknw wad to do lor. every night facing sb²p wad do you then expect me to react? yes im dumb. pretending to nt knw who sb²p likes. bt thts e only way to make my life happier? living in a al e lies, i dontknw. bt i cant care so much.

thanks to joshua fer answering my qns. hahh. or rather it was his friend tht answered my qns? bt nvm. mus really thank him fer answering my questions. hehh. at least cleared my doubts.