im not sure, i was nvr sure.
hv been very moody fer ths 3 days, & i guess im stil stuck at e same thought after so long.
uncertainty & hesitance flood my mind, anger arouse easily.
is this me?



today didnt hv e mood to go anywhr. sorry hui & al. hais, i wish i can put up a smile on my face fer new yr. dontwan to keep that sentence of wad i heard in my mind, wish to just erase it. its like causing a severe brain damage in my mind, leading to distractions of my concentration, resulting in a shorter concentration span, lesser tolerance fer anything.

whats going on through my mind? i doubt i know. struggling within myself, ignoring pple that i donthv intentions to. turning away from pple that i dont wish to. hais.

i dontwan al ths to be happening, no more.

in about 2 days time it wil be cny. a joyous occasion which a tearing me, a distorted mind & a dum dum heart that doesnt respond anymore.
leave me alone, let it be.


going to grandma hs to stay. tonight gtg hui's hse to tk my clothes, thn meet up with justin & joshua. paul&al wil be joining us. its as though returning to how we were when we were young, growing up together, in that house, where we find comfort in each other. hahha(: cant wait to meet you guys. loves!!!