e min i was woken up from my slp, i cant get back to slp anymore.
once i realised e reality, nothing can attract me back into e unrealistic truth.

this time im fully awake,
turned & tossed on my bed,
couldnt find a right position fer me to lay my head,
& get to slp..
my mind couldnt stop thinking about e things that hv happened fer e past few days.
reality just woke me up.
i read al yr old posts, realised many things.
& yeahs, things hv changed.
im no longer who i am to you.
so theres no point fer me to cling onto this dumb thing.

from today, im seriously gonna just treat you like a friend of mine.
nothing deeper than platonic love.



went to church & stayed awake through e whole sermon.
listened to everything that was said.
& it has certainly taught me many things,
& strengthened my determination to achieve this goal of letting go.

sermon was al about friends.
maybe maintaining a platonic relationship is so much easier than a love relationship.
friends share more things that couples.
friends help each other more than how couples do.
friends wil understand & get to know e bigger picture.
am trying to convince myslf to let go.
i'l hv to succeed this tim round.


yr place so majestic in my heart,
removing is tough, but it isnt impossible.


this is like gna be my last post until after midyrs.
after today, am not gng to touch this com le.
hv to start revising alr.
left pathetic no. of days to e start of midyr.
cant afford to do badly.
-&it has become more than just an examination. it represents my ability to be free.