its 0420 now. 

tried to sleep, but just couldnt. so decided to stay online instead. haha. hardly anyone's online now. 

tuitioned today.

sat infront of this super noisy grp of holy innocent ppl. cant they just shut up? & tht guy, hes damn flirtatious. e way he converse with those girls are just so argh..  really feel like turning back and ask them to shut up. sorry frog! today e teacher asked monica & i to answer one qn, thn we didnt know how to. frog tried to help, but got scolded by e teacher. & e whole class stared at him. ): sorry.

on e way home.

thought about a lot of things. was choosing between bus or mrt. really felt like taking e mrt, being able to stand in e cabin staring down at e school field. hopefully getting to see a glimpse. in e end, didnt have e courage to enter those gates. thus, took bus. at some point of time, i really hope that it could be measured. that i will know how much i owe. its a pity to find out feelings cant be measured. neither can i be compared. but its e guilt in me that causes me to make comparisons like that. wanting to try to ease those thoughts in me. 

many claimed that they have gone through what ive gone through. but it doesnt seem so. sometimes e things that ive went through, only minority will feel it. its that kinda love. nth will be used to measure it, no measurements can fit the quantity of how magnificent it is. &thats how im feeling.

that struggle to ease my thoughts, my doubts, my questions.