"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Given to me by Mrsoon.

I started recalling what attracted me to it. &I realised it was the way they respected their seniors. Though they don't work the military style, but everyone had mutual respect. And there's no such thing as personal attacks, or revenge. I find it both amazing and cool to see such harmony in a team though there could be conflicts fer some personal reason or different ideas of how everyone thinks. But the bottom line would be, they still care a lot not only fer one another but also fer the reputation and the morale of the team.

After joining it, what I saw and noticed about them wasn't just something that I could just admire and dream about being in it. I felt it and I went through it. Their concern fer the team is all over their faces. Though they were times that we got scolded or punished, but we went through all as a team and we were a team.

That kind of spirit soon died down after those that uphold the spirit left. Trying very hard to build the rapport again. Working very hard to attain the spirit we once shared. But it all voiced down to negative thoughts in the minds of others. The thought of giving up surfaced not once not twice but almost everytime I meet a setback. At times, when I really feel very useless, I am always very tempted to give in to the thought. Just let them rot and die, afteral I'm leaving after this midyears.

But no, the responsibility kept me in suspense fer a long time. Each time I sense the temptation to give up, I know I can't just leave it in the lurch. More importantly, I cannot turn away pretending its nothing, pretending I have not seen or sensed the problem. We went through so much, we are not only just seniors and juniors, but we have also became a family. A family that shared the good and the bad. A family that wants the best fer all of us. We may not have the best method to arrest the current situation, we may not have the best solution that will minimise the amount of complains and unsatifactions among us, but as long as we are willing to cooperate and try, nothing is impossible.

So now, as long as I am still in it, I will never give up.
I will try & try again, no matter how many times I fail.