the last photo i took with you. well at least we were able to smile. that night is horror, and i wouldnt wanna think of that night anymore. just really hope to see you soon(:

ive been attending school fer the past 3days mainly because i didnt wanna break my promise. but yeah, i wasnt myself in school at all. kept falling aslp during lessons, staring blankly into space. honestly, i do not know what was taught the past few days. have been going reguarly fer soccer trainings too, but am just too distracted.

monday.

thanks to all that have been very concern fer me.

had soccer training aft sch. i almost died during pt, couldnt catch my breath when i was running. even when i stopped, i had a hard time breathing. pushing myself as hard as i can so that i can numb myself. i dont want to think anymore. overtiring myself, to get a goodnight slp. had poa tuition at night, my entire ledger ppr was filled with correction fluid. dont know what im doing.

tuesday.

slpt through some of the lessons. didnt had a good slp the night bef. im starting to blv in all sorts of nonsense. ohwell, the conclusion is, im losing myself. went to eat mos with andrea and cherie, that is like e first proper meal i ate ever since sunday night. the thought of food kept me full. went home and realise it was so early. changed and went to cityhall to walk around. everywhere i walked just reminds me of what we did there. it seems silly, it seems like im a fool, but thats how much i miss you. and when i know you are having fever, my mind just went blank. all i could thought of was, are you okay?

wednesday.

felt better than the past 2 days. but not exactly that good. slpt through 2hrs in class during free periods. i rather be slping that emo-ing. yeah, i finally found a song that sings everything i wanna tell you. had some silly civil defence trng today. aft which went fer soccer trng, did gk trng the whole time. i just wish i could concentrate more. a distracted keeper wouldnt be allowed on field i guess. came home, Jo called.

in about 4hrs, you wil going to school.

stop asking me whthr i have turned les or not. well, if you think i have turn les, then so be it. whats the point of asking me? even if i reply no, you ppl start asking me whthr am i replying honestly. so why ask in the first place when youre expecting me to tell you i have turned les? i seriously cbb with whatever that you ppl are saying about me. as long as i know im not, its fine with whatever you ppl say. ask me, only if you trust me. but if you have trusted me in the first place, you would know im not.