so what if I understand how you feel? I seem so useless and feel so helpless in front of you.

dont ask me to decide on anything right now. because I dont even know what I want. stop telling me what I should start doing to help myself out of the mess I've created, because I dont intend to do so. not that I enjoy being in this shit that I am in right now, but because I really dont have the mood to get myself back on the right track.

all I ask fer is time. give me 2 more weeks of allowance, if not at least 1. let me do whatever I feel like doing. let me be as childish as I can be. let me have the freedom to schedule my everyday plans. and aft that, Im willing to compromise with you.

fer this whole month, everything is shelved because of just one reason. I know all of you wil most probably start doubting my capabilities. but Im not at al bothered with how ppl think. fer those that had high hopes on me, Im sorry to disappoint you guys.