You might or might not know its you.
But right now, I know. I know how much I've done this time round, I know how much those casual comments have hurt you. Being unable to apologise to you face to face, I shall say, I'm utterly sorry fer my insensitivity and I'm truly disappointed in myself fer being unable to detect any difference out of your usual indifferent behavior.

Everything came to me as a shock. What I did not know, what I did not expect would happen, was told right at my face. Fer that very moment, I remained stunned. The helpless feeling never seemed to cease each time I think of what I've said, and the looks of you. Fer the years of friendship, I actually needed someone to break the news to me or I would remain ignorant.

Ignorance fer this matter is definitely not bliss. I've said and done many wrongs, which I should be held accountable fer. Looking from different point of views, I may not be at wrong, suggesting that this isn't the outcome I've wanted. But no, I don't wanna leave you in the lurch. I was the one that said it in that manner, in the place, without being discreet with the language used. I was wrong, no doubts. Yet I know my guilt will never be able to atone fer what I've said and done, neither will it lessen your burdens and grief.

Knowing the full picture now, I just need you to trust me once more and I'm sure and confident, I'll walk you out of it. Trust me, just fer this once.