came back home straight after school today, to clear all the assignments. well, I really dread to open up the Marife. idk why. =x

had pe today. floorball, its quite fun! but i think i prefer playing it with Nicholas instead. the blacks were kinda violent. 

fer some reasons, I'm starting to lose my mind over integration. this cannot work, seriously not. still hoping fer my A in my math.

R just called today in the afternoon ;D

gosh, she's coming back on the 30th, instead of the original 4th then 2nd. hahaha! fickle-minded! but yeah, the sad thing is, I can't pick her up that night =/ and cos I'm not allowed back in Ace, I'm not allowed to be there during their training, so I can't go out with R. like wth! that busy girl has only 5days in sg bef leaving fer Mexico. &she's fully booked by trainings, therefore no outing with her. not even receiving her or sending her off.  ):

R, goodluck fer your international youth com in Mexico ;D

My Greatest Fear.

&I suppose its the fear of losing you ultimately. I seriously have no idea why I have that fear, I'm supposed to have my full trust in you. Maybe cos previously your love was an insurance. Thus I never had that impression we'll drift, but right now, I'm starting to get worried. 

but you seemed so in love, so serious. it subconsciously causes to me to keep retreating. whatever feelings i had, all being shoved aside, standing at a corner watching over you. at times I tried revealing myself, but you're too busy fussing over your matters, too busy loving the someone else, that you don't even care how I feel.

we used to be such best friends, knowing every dirty lil secret about each other. telling each other the weirdest thing on earth. when i'm upset, i know you'll be the only one listening to me.

I'm supposed to be happy and excited right now I guess, but instead that fear is building up. do YOU know? where were you the past weeks!? you've totally disappeared.