Good things will always come to an end.

I used to be the center of attraction in your life, where everything revolves around me. Every single things you do, I'm noted with love. Even things that are yet to happen, I will hear about it. 

Through the months, I do admit things change. There's always ups and downs in life, and that's inevitable. I did enjoy myself when I had all the attention I ever dreamt of, when you treated me with love and a decent respect. So much so that I started taking things fer granted, thinking that thats the way you should treat me. 

In countable days, I'm gna have to see you again. In situations where I cannot make myself scarce, I cannot find simple excuses to get out of the picture. Those days seemed to have happened so quickly, I have had insufficient of it yet, would you give me a glimpse of the past once more?

Not being afraid to get close to you, I'm just reluctant. Reluctant to see the change in you, reluctant to admit that you're no longer my_.

I know we're not supposed to be avoiding each other, but we have been. Causing each other to start worrying about the other party. All the detours that we took, are starting to cause me to feel so jealous. The jealousy I'm feeling now, is really so indescribable. Fer the whole of last night, I promised myself to keep my eyes off it, to keep my mind free from it. But it just comes so uncalled fer. Cos even when I'm asleep, it haunts me through my dream.

Dearest-

if only things can be like how it was in the past.

if only I've learnt how to appreciate you in the past.

if only I've learnt how to be contented with your actions.

if only I've learnt how to treasure you.

if only I've learnt how to express myself earlier.

maybe all this wouldn't have taken place at all? 

all this jealousy are just a retribution, and its just a form of my punishment. 

dearest-

iloveyou. is it too late?

i got the answer here, right here.