• had tuition in the morning.
  

• met audrey & huiping.
  

wasn't planned to meet them, but just didn't feel like going home aft tuition. so headed to yishun to eat bk. ken, clarence and genny were there too. 

shared much with them. thanks girls!

• family bbq/gathering.
  

and as usual, there'll be a bbq every hols or sth. 

had it at calrose this time round. did much of the cooking cos i seriously lost my appetite. granny came today, she was looking way better than days bef. great. the food was great i heard, done by paul this time round. 

we used to have a bigger crowd, but it was only 18 people today.

i used to think my mum had the most ideal family that one would ever have, except the fact that my grandpa had passed away. being in the midst of them, makes me feel really fortunate, and loved. watching the way the brothers and sisters can casually comment on each other and reminisce the past together over a glass of wine, made me feel so blessed, encouraging me to patch up with my sisters each time i argue with them. and their other halves getting along so well with the rest of the family, as if they had been living together fer ages. their familiarity with each other really painted a warm, loving family picture. not forgetting my cousins. having closely-knitted relationships with my cousins, having my cousins splurge their love on me, made me feel even more treasured.

through years, things have really changed. like how it is in a drama, starting with the most delightful intro. well, things have really changed so much. its so drastic and fast that i wouldn't wanna believe it myself. its like those drama serial, quarrels between the in-laws. and yes, it is, though i really do not wish to admit. i've lost half of my most caring cousins, lost half of my most loving aunties and uncles. it may be their true colours, and i really do not wish to know. they seemed so strange to me. 

somehow i wished, last year's christmas never happened.

the knight in the shining armor.

best friends fits our status best, if that's what you think. 

there's no point debating over what's been said, no point getting so worked up, neither will there be a point if you get guilty over the matter and the tears shed. as i've said, i'm the one that ought to be blamed. cos i failed to treasure the goodness of you, your meticulous care fer me, your undivided attention. my ignorance must have brought you distress and much hurt at the same time. you had been putting aside all this i've done, and ctn treating me as though i was some princess. but i've overlooked it. 

if you think that is it, it should be.