my nonsensical remark sometimes really do relight those hopes you have.
my actions have really placed you in clouds' nine at times.

i should have put myself in your shoes, bef making those outrageous remarks.
after reading your offline msg, i do agree that we ever had really fun and great times together. complementing that, we have times that we practically would never wanna mention about once more. everything was fine until tears was brought into e picture. those tears shed, did bring about much guilt. deep down, i may have alr gotten use to how it is living with your love, being assured time and time again of your presence. often taking the easier and more comfortable way, i choose to keep quiet about it, and ctn living at the expense of your heartache.

there's no need fer everything to return to the past.
just have a turning point, and allow everything to be back on the path it was supposed to be.

the entire friendship was built on the basis of platonic love, then it went haywire. thinking about it, the overall process was hurtful and teary. torturing and tiring most of the time. we may have our best times, times that as friends we'll never get to have. but all e major setbacks just fer the few our of joy that is impractical and false, i would rather search fer pure joy.

re-tracking everything would seem tough and most probably nearly impossible right now. but we've been through the toughest time ever, and i'm sure this would be something really easy to overcome, if we work towards the same goal.

I'm still that pillar of yours.
the promises i've made, would never cease.
the trust and faith in you, would never decrease.
the love i had fer you, would never lessen.
its just the perception we're gna have that is gna be different.

my friend, i'm truly sorry.