guess i'll post about graduation some time ltr, maybe after O's when I finish collating photos and uploading them.

well, since the start of the year, we've been talking about today, anticipating today, waiting fer the day to come. In the midst of studying, I do admit that sometimes I wished O's will just be the next day, and I'll get it over and done with. But last night, when I was tossing and turning in bed, I realised how unprepared I was fer today, and the following days.

The long anticipated day is finally a few hours away, having prepared for so long, I thought I could have an easy night. But as I flipped through my chemistry textbook, I figured that there was so much so much that I didn't know. Though Chemistry was my more preferred subject, the stress and pressure fer the moment and the hours after reached the peak.

Though my eyes was closed, appearing to be asleep, my mind couldn't seemed to take a break. I knew I had to sleep, I knew I needed to sleep, but my mind just wouldn't cooperate. Without alarm, I got out of the bed at 0630, then forcing myself to continue sleeping.

After going through the experiments, I felt disheartened. I am now further away from my target. Time is really running out, yet the anxiety have left me breathless, speechless. I used to joke about myself coming in top 10 in the school, or winning some top students at school. Those were just random jokes, to liven up my day.

Its tough. Managing time, stress and pressure. Guess the process of preparing for O's is more challenging than handling O's itself. I can't help it but to tell myself I have to do well this time round. I don't have much choice, do I?

Time really flies, a moment ago I still had 50 odd days, now O's have officially started for me. Practicals down, left with theory papers. Was just wondering, if I performed and get what I wanted, will you be happy? But I know, if I don't do well, you'll definitely not be glad.

Monday is the start of the intensive examination block. I really hope by then my confidence and knowledge will multiply. Concocting magic, praying for a miracle to happen.