just reached home 5 mintues ago. went with dear to east coast for dinner then came back. it was supposed to be fun but as e sky darken and we were sitting on e top of e rock, i cried. he started talking abt his course frst, then he ctn abt me having to stand strong after he leaves, at that pnt of time then i started crying. and for e frst time i saw his tears too. normally im e one crying in frnt of him and not him, his tears are hardly seen. he said that because he saw me crying because of him thats why. tears are just a way of expressing yr feelings, same as smiling too. but just now e tears that we shed, was it e expression of being sad or because we knw we're gng to part soon? i dont know. there is alot of things that are destined in life which are not to be chosen by us and we just have to follow what is planned ahead for us. hais. life is just like that lors. do we actually have a say for our own life? i was at frst shocked when seeing his tears, but after that i realised no matter how strong a person could be, he will also fall. all e while, i thought that i would always be e one that will cry in front of him. hardly havng e thought that i would see his tears because of his firm and strong look. dear, we only have 38days left bahs. muacks!

there is another thing always in my mind, wanting to tell u. how then i can mk u blv me that u are wasting yr time? if everything is alrdy over then u cant be e only party trying to salvage e entire thing when e other party has alrdy set his mind on studying and had decided to not like anyone. u are only deceving yrslf. i think u shld let go ba.

e time is not gng to stop to let me say what i want to say to u.