e genting trip;
totally freaked out!


fer e past few days, wo zhong shi xin bu zai yan. no matter wad i do, my heart & mind always seems so engaged in thoughts. i hv been thinking, thinking & thinking ..

ye neng suan wo xiang tong le ba.
neng gou yong you ai ni de ji hui,
wo yi jing gai man zhu le.
sui ran yong you ni wo hui geng kai xin,
ke shi bu bi le.
shi qing jiu gai you ge liao duan,
bu neng rang cuo wu ji xu xia qu.
ai ni de guo cheng heng tong,
heng xing ku,
mei chi duo zai yi pang ku qi.
ke shi neng gou you zhe duan guo cheng,
wo jiu man zhu le.
wo hui ba zai xing shang ge shang de ming,
man man de rang ta xiao shi.

im once again happy!
putting down e lots of burden loving someone. since e whole love was wrong. i shant continue wads wrong. hahs. im fine, im alright. thinking of it now, i do treasure e love alot. though i was truely one-sided. but being able to offer my love to you, i feel honoured. nvr denying that i do stil love you alot now, even if i had straighten out my thoughts. but im letting go.

in future, i doubt i wil look back anymore. because i dont wish to go through twice e pain. i ever thought of opening up my heart to you before. but each time you make me withdraw my idea. i thank you fer doing so, at least i dont go through that huge amt of pain after opening & then being hurt.

love is something that has loads to do with fate ba. nvr it is within my own hands. since e both of us arent fated at al, then i think no matter how hard i yearn fer it, until my heart break, aso wont have use. love isnt something that needs one person to work hard fer. if it is yours, after going one whole big round, it is stil yours. if it aint yrs, even if its right beside you, there aint any use of it.

my greatest aim to get you out of my mind, half a yr ltr ba. if i can do so.